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Robin Taylor (he/him)'s avatar

Jean, I've only just found you, and WOW. I see your talent shining through those woven layers of doubt and hope, and I cannot wait to see what you create next.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thanks so much, Robin... you have no idea how happy I was to see your comment! I'd resolved to keep posting even if I didn't get any subscribers, if only to keep myself accountable. But it's infinitely better to have readers who are interested and kind, even if they're just a few. :D

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sarah hoenicke flores's avatar

Sounds a lot like the process I see many newer writers going through, too—of learning all the rules, and then learning which they want to break. Thanks for sharing your work. I look forward to seeing more and hearing more about your process.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thanks so much! And absolutely, I think of it as my transition from crawling to walking. And one day I’ll be able to run. 😀

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sarah hoenicke flores's avatar

I love that. I’m in a similar place with my art process.

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Stephanie Thomas Berry's avatar

I have come across similar creative lulls, being unsure of where to go next. What I have found is that sketching a particular tree, or engaging with the living landscape in some way, awakens a quality of attention that is pure enchantment, a movement of consciousness that goes both ways—I become the tree, the river, the plant, and the object of my attention becomes likewise a part of me. From that relationship all manner of curiosities pull me forward.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thanks so much for sharing this... that's a wonderful way of finding your creative way forward and beautifully put.

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Melissa Kelly's avatar

Wow!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

❤️

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Licinda P. Hess's avatar

You have absolutely amazing talent. I just thought I'd pop in from your Note, but wow, wow, wow.. Incredible. Well done for pursuing your gifting!!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

I can’t thank you enough for the boost your words gave me this morning! 😊💕 I appreciate it so much.

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Paula Swenson's avatar

This: Instead of trying paint subjects mostly as they are, maybe I’m ready to paint them how I want them to be.

So much this!

A transition I'm slowly making myself. Best of luck to us both as we wander down this intriguing new path🪄😁

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Absolutely! We are traveling buddies in spirit. 😊

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Licinda P. Hess's avatar

Ps. I've just decided in the last literal minute that I am going to work on my drawing. Your persistence is absolute proof that it can be done with the necessary commitment. I'm not saying I have your talent, but I can try to do something💛🌷

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

What?!? That's... amazing! 😭 I'm 100% with you that persistence and putting in the work is what matters. So I know you can do it!!! 💕 If you ever need someone to cheer you on, you know where to find me. 😄

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Licinda P. Hess's avatar

Thank you so much, Jean! You are very kind and generous. Have a wonderful weekend. 🌷💛

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Tinabeth Chapman's avatar

Beautiful, your Pep talk worked. The painting is gorgeous. I have just begun with watercolors. It is fun working with them.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thank you! 😊 Watercolors are amazing!

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Amy Shamansky's avatar

Lovely art, really enjoy reading about your process, and especially appreciate your experience of feeling lost. That has happened to me so many times. I love drawing and painting animals, and while I feel satisfaction in rendering them well, I have more fun with the wonky, silly art that comes out of play and experimentation. I think there's a place for both!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thanks so much! The mix of play and planned seems like a very common, if not universal, process. 😊

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Connor Fitzgerald's avatar

You've only been painting for a year?! Jeebus!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

A year and some change now! I really committed myself to it. 😊

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Connor Fitzgerald's avatar

Apparently!

These also remind me of some of my mom's paintings...from after she'd been painting most of her life! Especially the impression of texture thing. Can't seem to figure out attaching images, but that technique does seem like kind of a pro tip, from ppl who paint alot.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

It’s definitely a stylistic choice! I’ve also tried painting hairs individually with a fine brush. It’s wonderful that your mom painted, too!

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Wendy Elizabeth Williams's avatar

WOW!!! What an amazing painting!!!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thank you so much! 😊 I really appreciate it.

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Sally Burke's avatar

Do what you feel is right for YOU. As another who puts paint on paper, I have tried several things over the past 10 years, some have been pretty good, others a disaster, but that hasn’t stopped me from doing what I enjoy and gifting some to family and friends. I love your birds, they are amazing.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thanks so much! I’m sure it’ll take time to understand how I like to paint… I know some things already but there are so many things I just haven’t tried yet.

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Lisa Kahn Schnell's avatar

Beautiful work, Jean! And I understand that feeling you described in your post. In addition to committing to drawing from life more, I have also been exploring abstract art. Both have pushed me closer to making work that feels like “me.” Still not sure where it’s all going, but that’s part of the fun! I look forward to seeing how your work develops!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thank you! And yes! It seems we’re trying similar things… I’ve found when I do paint backgrounds I prefer them to be more abstract than my main subjects.

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Lisa Kahn Schnell's avatar

Yes! I tend to like the way that looks. It's also an opportunity to meld both modes of working, which to me creates a more satisfying process. I've also experimented with letting go of some of my control over what the finished piece will look like. Some true messes! And also some pieces that I feel deeply connected to.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

This resonates with me… it’s never a straightforward progression, is it?

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Lisa Kahn Schnell's avatar

I mean...it never is for me, anyway! : )

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SSmith's avatar

This is beautiful!

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thank you so much! 😊

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Hello_who_dis's avatar

WOW! So glad I stumbled onto your page. Such talent! :)

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thank you, thank you! I really appreciate it. 😊

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ViaVeritasVita's avatar

Dropped a comment under your fox in Notes---so came to your Substack.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thanks so much! I'm glad you found your way here. :)

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Jo's avatar

I am happy to have found you and look forward to seeing how your journey unfolds.

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Jean S. Kaiyou's avatar

Thank you so much! I'm also very eager to see where this all leads... so happy you're coming along with me.

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